c r e a m s i c l e

february207th
1.36pm
ahh!!
not done lab.. 0-o!!!!
*fret fret fret..
*blink blink..
get back to work.. >.<"

posted by mi @ 1:37:00 PM

february207th
11.12am
so once again it seems like hell week from b4 reading week actually won..
ahh!! >.< going to start freaking out b.c going to fail! >.<
so fucked it's not even funny. >.<
sth must be wrong with me..
i must be getting dumber by the second or sth..
alcohol intake is too high maybe??
but i dun drink that much!
plus i haven't even once gotten drunk!!
maybe too high sodium content so my muscles can't work that well..
or maybe low calcium content so the neurons don't fire quite as readily b.c the influx of calcium just isn't there??!
i dunno. omg. i feel dumb.
damnness..
fucked fucked fucked..
y?!?!?! argh..
i studied quite a bit!
i'll admit i hit the books rather late but still!!!!!!!!!!!
omg i am so mad..
i really gotta get hardcore before the end of this..

maybe i'm in the wrong program.. tho i dun really believe there's a right and a wrong choice persay..
n where's my passion??
it flew out the window last yr.
*sigh..
this is rather depressing..
*sigh..
n no snackies to soothe me today either..
it is lent so must fast every friday..
wah!! i am so upset!
well @ least i'm not in disbelief or shock like i was first term..
right?
kinda??
*sigh.. well.. what do i need to do to get higher??
gotta somehow ace everything else.
but may i remind myself that i just handed in a crap lab report just this past tuesday?
*sigh..
oh... such depression..
what fun times eh?
*>.<"

maybe i just am in the wrong program..
wrong passion just mite be it..
lemme free where i can do the courses i want to do!!
>.<""
0-o??
if i knew this b4 then what the hell am i doing here??
i think cuz i must be insane..
n think i can do nething i try @..
tho i still honestly truly believe this..
i'm not failing failing yet @ least..
that's a gd thing.
but no more sacrifices from me!

righteee..
i really should step on the gas pedal and see where i go..
>.<
i feel rather floaty..
like lost-ish..

*sigh..
i hope i dun sound too pathetic if someone happens to bother with this entry.. >.<

* s i g h *

posted by mi @ 11:31:00 AM

february206th
6.51pm
wahh!! what is wrong! >.<
i can't get onto the house network! argh..
no wait.. i can only get on one of the 4 other cpus!!
that is so wrong! >.< i am being deprived again! >.< i just wanna watch queer eye for the straight guy!!
PLS!!!
y?!?!?
*hmph
this is just sad..
=|
n it's freezing down there..
*brrrr.
neways. ~^^
lalalalala.
i am loitering away my life.
it's rather sad really..
n i wanna goto A&P
cuz i wanna pick up some more stuffs.. ~^^
i feel like a shopaholic..
there's no where else to go!!
no wait.. going to mall on sat hopefully. ~^^
lalalala.

yayyyyyyyyyyyyy!!
i'm on the network!!
ahh! i get to watch QE!! ~^^
such a gd show..
omg.. hehehehe. ~^^
wahh!!!
hehe. so happy now.
n u kno what else?
nem just finished dling the last samurai!
omg i'm so excited!
it's SUCH a gd movie!
mmm.. ~^^
saw in theatres back during xmas break.
was super gd movie!!
mm. oscar's are coming up!
it's sad..
feel so dislocated from society..
not that i knew what was going on b4.
but even less now than ever b4.
>.<

neways..
hmm. A&P neone??
oceanspray mango n grapefruit juice is super gd! ~^^
mmm...
(omg.. >.<" feel like a see li.. oh dear.. >.<" this is sad..
n i'm not even 2 decades old yet! >.<"")
neways..
i really oughtta do my lab.
n i'm just here raving abt everything. >.<

only i prolly failed midterm last nite.
can't even remember nething nemore.
it's quite sad actually. >.<
i really oughtta read the txtbk b4 class.
maybe i should do that for tmr even! ~^^
esp cuz now feel like time goes by so much slower w.o msn n icq..
neways.. allala. heheh
bi's!

posted by mi @ 6:52:00 PM

february204th
12.25pm
i'm such a ditz! >.<
i did it again..
wahh! i'm so dumb. argh..
stupid.. now missed my anat class. >.<
cuz couldn't get my lab done cuz was having so much trouble.
n y am i always so sleepie?!? >.<
*sniff.. argh.
that class is the worst to attempt to catch up in! >.<
*sigh..
well luckily no micr this morning.
*sigh.. mm.. micr. hehehe. >.<
okie.. now i sound like a nerd..
haha. ~♥!!

wahh! i totally forgot abt friendster!
so when took break decided to sign on..
n wah!! hehe. feel so luv'd cuz ppl haven't forgotten abt me! keke. ~^^ ♥ ♥!!
yes.. i kno i sound really ditzy but i think i had too many expresso beans..
u kno.. i thought was just the normal chocolate covered coffee beans..
but then i had one too many n i noticed it actually said expresso..
>.< not that it helped ne..
i still didn't manage to stay up. *argh!!
mmm.. dark chocolate is indeed better than milk chocolate.. eeee. *cough cough.
but see u kno what is even better??
white chocolate! ~^^
mmm..
n kno.. even better than that?? cake...
mmm.. food..
n lent is going to start soon..

what to give up this yr's 40 days??
was having discussion abt this one time @ dong nai (yes.. it's like my hang out.. can't help it! it's the default food place!!)
boiled down to:
no soya sauce (but i ran out so am not as reliant nemore.. friend rice works with salt too! ~^^)
no snacks or desserts (i just got this german cheesecake!! n aww my poor lemon cake bread thing... =()
no asian music (i'm gonna be supremely deprived)
no going out (kingston is bland enuf w.o this restriction)
no talking abt guys (sigh.. need target.. keke)
n the others.. dun remember..
they kinda.. just blew away.. (dharma n greg..) heheheh >.<"

i can always give up watching movies or those tv shows..
but i dun watch that many cuz i'm restricted to when my housemates are on the network..
cuz i dun dl myself cuz silly cpu has no burner so my harddrive will just die..
*sigh..

mm.. over reading week!? guess what my greatest accomplishment of being 19 is?!?
i got my G!! ~^^ yaya!!
=P n after only practiced driving for two days upon my return. hehe ~^^
the examiner was prolly scared of me cuz he asked how many times i drove on hiway in the past 3 months n i replied with 7 these past two days n this morning..
hahah. =P ♥!!

what else? i've been hooked to megatokyo!! >.<
it's horrible.. i've got this insane addiction! n there are too many episodes to catch up on!! haha..
it's gonna be a race to the finish.. keke.

wahh! u kno what? i think i'm incapable of making pancakes!!
well. more like i lost the ability somehow..
mike said they didn't taste all that great..
=( *hmph.. *glare..
but then nem said she loved them cuz they were in essence fluffy crepes!!
well. to be honest was trying to make crepes from my initial pancake batter.. hahaha. >.<
hey! dun laugh.. i started from scratch..
n i thought it was ok.
*hmph.

guess what?! is jolie's bday this sunday! ~^^
n winnie's bday monday! ~^^
time to go shopping this w.e! >.<
somehow.. considering that the party's friday nite.. 0-o

ahhhhhhh i've a midterm tmr! >.<
i am super not ready. n i can't help it.
i dun wanna study! =(
neways. i oughtta get ready for class.. >.<
n then study study study!

posted by mi @ 12:29:00 PM

february9teenth
11.06am
argh..
>.< i can't concentrate on hwk!! >.<
so much difficulty! >.< =(
entirely useless break so far!! i HAVE to get sth done soon! >.<
i have so much to do!
let's see..
1. orgo formal lab
2. micr formal lab
3. phgy midterm wed
4. orgo catch up
5. engl catch up
6. summer job stuff
7. stupid program problem

basically i've been mad procrastinating..
not getting ne work done..
is rather depressive..
neways. i think i'm gonna get back to attempting to finish some applications so i can start to do hwk.. >.<
n am going out tonite again..
so have no time if dun get started..

ooh! the other nite went to sing k!~^^
had fun. keke.
viv'll send me pix soon! ~^^
will post once i get.. hehe. =)

neways. chat w. ppl lata~~^^

posted by mi @ 11:14:00 AM

february6teenth
1.20pm
ewwwwww. i hate enneagram test..
hate likert scaling (fact courtesy of viv upon my whining of results..) >.<
n am supremely happy that they tend to be quite inaccurate.. n i believe her.. esp cuz she is taking all this psyc. =)

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posted by mi @ 1:55:00 PM

february4teenth
7.02pm
♥ happy v day ppl! ~^^ ♥
what a great day for lonely ppl like me. hahaha =P
but neways.. hope u guys r all having a better time than me.. =P
>.< i am immeasureably sick..
which sucks..
always after exams..

but yeah. go reading week! ~^^
finally done my h*** week..
was horrid..
barely saw daylight..
n trapped like an underground railroad refugee-type person. >.<
during which time i gained new best friends..
my txtbks!!
i learned that they are always there,
have tons to teach me..
super patient and explains things to me @ my own pace..
n i'm so comfortable with them that i can sleep w. them too!! (not purposely mind u.. but hey.. u do get kinda bored listening to them rant to u abt hormones..)

>.< argh.. feeling headachey.. >.<
think will goto sleep n try to get better. >.<
sayonara~!

posted by mi @ 1:22:00 PM

february6th
10.28am
wahH!!
it's only 10.29am n the worlds greatest course is not over!?!
*sniff!!
micr 221 lectures by dr. jarrell are now gone! >.<

*sigh.. was such a fun class today!
n i luv micr!!!
did u kno that a spore has been found to still be viable after 40 million yrs in the stomach of a bee?!?
it's like jurassic park all over again!!
hehe. except this is not fiction. =P
now i am motivated to take 435!!
*sigh. regret missing that one lecture the other day..
but i was having one of those days where i just didn't want to do anything! >.<
it's disheartening. =(

but neways. am looking forward to the new prof..
resisting temptation to start reading notes ahead so can see what will learn about...
only b.c i have to finish my micr lab due today! >.<
due @ 2.30..
i still got time..
n just hafta finish my discussion,
one question,
and the bibliography..
since i worked on it last nite..
A LOT!

u kno. i spent 3.5 hrs yesterday in douglas until 10.30 attempting to finish it so i wouldn't have to bother with it today!! >.<
n u kno.. i nvr realized that excel semi log graphs were just labelled as 'logarithmic' graphs!!
so i spent a gd 0.5 hr looking for it b4 i gave up! >.<
so silly..
esp since it was just right there..
*sigh. i am just dumb..
n then i got side-tracked while looking for info abt penicillin, streptomycin and chloramphenicol..
so i googled them..
@ first i was gd.. n i even found a video to watch what penicillin does to bacteria!! (it's super cool.. u oughtta click my link..)
n it was all gd.. n i was understanding it n all..
so i went to look for a site that i could site for my lab..
so on page 2 i found this link to www.nobel.se
n then i found this penicillin game! (~^^ ♥ ♥)
it amused me for awhile..
but unfortunately my cpu decided to retaliate n froze on me!
jolie n i were having so much fun!
except that it was rather weird n u had to grope things. >.<
neways..
so my cpu decided to remind me to get back to my lab..
especially since it is due today..
n silly library closes @ 11pm.. so it sux..
y the heck does it close @ 11pm??
neways. long story short..
went home... n finished the penicillin game! ~^^
worked more on lab until 2.30-ish..
went to bed..
woke @ 7.15-ish.
did more lab.
was late to class but saved once more by the USAT evaluation forms..
n attended the most wonderful class ever.
n now am in lib.. n going to finish lab..
hehe..
effectively it's only 10.50am
so i've wasted 0.5 hr.
but hey!.. who said recording memories arn't important?!
well.. i suppose in my case it's more just finding somewhere to babble n @ times rant..
but neways. lab time it is! ~^^

u kno.. reading this over..
it's times like this when i wonder exactly how focused ic an be on a given subject @ a time..
i get distracted rather easily... >.<"

posted by mi @ 10:55:00 AM

february1st
5.34pm
argh!! >.<
y is there so much to study??
n anat notes are so tedious to type! >.<
neways, so am on study break..
happy happy~^^
(did u kno that lecture 3's notes (W2L1) was killer long?.. if used times new roman, size 11 font, double spacing..
i'd have gotten 11 pages of notes!!
that's one lecture! >.< *so sad..
so many more to go..
now understand y insanely happy eh? >.<")
neways... temporarily no work!! hehehe

*sigh..
<3<3<3~!!
nanananan hehehe. ~^^
is sad how this minor study break is making me so happy.. >.<
neways..
am bored tho taking break so was surfing journals, etc @ my leisure..
n guess what?!?
friend that i met in summer,
who got signed by a music company has finally started recording in the states!
n site is now seemingly up n running..
go brett!! ~^^

*ai. am still bored tho writing journal..

ahh. n nth to write abt!! >.<
no wait. there was party friday nite @ maha's!!

=P had super loads of fun cuz partied hard~^^
(gahh.. exams are coming! >.<)
lotsa ppl..
tho didn't kno half of ppl that showed..
so therefore met lotsa ppl..
but am bad with names. >.<
(..n all intro'd in too short a time frame to remember them all..)
(..only ones i had a reasonably long convo with was cindy n yen.. =|)
(op.. n remember cedric.. cuz he was one who was insanely looking for his rum.. >.<)
n go upper canada! ~^^
tastes gd cuz. hehe
n anat posse n other pure sci ppl showed up! yay!!
tho my 'homies' (wnd calls them) left me early. haha

op. almost forgot,
made hugely successful bailey's cheesecake! ~^^
n saved piece for houseangel..
only problem is that is now smooshed in saran wrap and placed ontop of container on her shelf..
consequence of travelling back that nite. haha
what else? oh yeah. huge alcohol consumption rate that day..
baileys n milk b4 making homemade pizza..
bailey's n milk while making bailey's cheesecake..
3.5 vodka n apple juices.. mmmmm.. ~^^ (gd recommendation by mike!! wnd drank other half.. n couple of stolen sips here n there)
1 upper can dark (decided that light also tastes gd)
(n also while drinking it got taught how to screw someone over if they accept ur challenge to chug a beer - courtesy of alex tan)
half large cup of rum n coke from wnd (cuz she didn't wanna finish)
n half red cap
wonder if kidney is mad @ me yet?
alcohol poisoning has not resulted.. n was still fully functional so maybe is ok..
(mental note - drink less next time)
(am also wondering what peak of tolerance is?? cuz i was tipsy but not yet to pt where i would not be able to walk straight nor have impared senses..)
(also. that reminds me that must go over phgy.. learned abt kidney cuz)

opps. is getting late! >.<
ahh! too long a break!! =| hmm..
well.. here is list of sites visited today:
(just for amusement purposes.. hehe if ur bored too *wink)
(n actually cuz was planning to make a list of sites so that i have sth to do next time am bored but fell thru cuz started talking abt maha party.. =P)
1. mui's journal <- immensely amusing n luv her to death! ~^^
2. megatokyo <- visited b.c complaining was bored and so liane intro'd to curb by boredom.. only problem.. new comic posted on mon, wed n fri only.. >.< what to do now?!?
3. mensa <- visited to contemplate whether i should take the mock test now or later.. n teetered on idea of whether i wanna be told i'm too dumb.. >.<
3. learn english? <- hilarious link that i found under my favorites =P
4. lucky kat <- interesting journal n cute layout.. u oughtta see the interesting jewelry she makes!!
5. big white guy's journal <- this guy is funny.. has interesting experiences living in hk. haha

neways. if need nemore amusement.. i recommend these two journals.. hehe
only cuz i visit them n generally find them immensely amusing.
i personally kno them in case doubts but they are generally fun reads..
however.. i must mention that i haven't visited in a while.. cuz too many things going on
n also caution to those who do not wanna read a lot..
cuz their entries are rather long..
matt's site
becclo's site

posted by mi @ 5:38:00 PM