c r e a m s i c l e: 11.2003

11.30.2003

november30th
2.05pm
*yawn..
i need sleep..
the hell..
it took me so long to find out what a damn neurilemma was..
the hell! >.<
y is it not in the txtbk??
it's supposed to be the most outer layer of the myelin sheath of the glial/schwann cell..
but where the hell does it say that?
the only place i found it was in the glossary in the back of the txtbk.
pg 832.
the hell.. so damn maddening..
>.<

*ai..
i wanna sleep! >.<
not enuf sleep..
i wanna go back to TO..
damness.
today is the last day for me to study anat practical stuff.
cuz my exam is tmr. >.<
@ 12.30pm
9th floor..
botterell.
for 45 minutes.
first bell ringer~!!
>.< not sure if should be excited or scared..
but am so tired..
plus am not done studying.
y am i still not done?
i've been studying anat for over a week now!
and still!
>.< this is just depressing..
=(

but guess what?!?
after exams i'm going to go shopping!!
n going to bake lil surprizes..
n go out.
n meet up with friends. ~^^
it'll be super much fun! =)
nananana.
this is all provided i dun fail of course...
*ai. so tired.
=|
okies. back to studying.
>.< stupid stupid neurology..

november30th
1.22am
wahh!!
>.< still on campus ne..
cuz am studying. >.<
in walter light.
lucky~^^!!
cuz my kor has the key so have somewhere to go when the stupid library closes..
damness.
y does it hafta close @ 9pm on saturdays?!?!?
>.<
anyway. guess what?!?
so happy~!!
cuz paul brought me candy!~^^
so much tho..
>.< feeling kinda sick..
but hehe..
so nice~^^ keke
*ai.. but ate too much

neways..
yay! so happy!
cuz arden mite come to pick me up from queens when exams are over~^^
hehe. so nice~^^
=)
hehe then i can show him around kingston for a bit. ~^^
it'll be so much fun!! hehe
nananana
hmm.. i oughtta get back to anat.
>.< otherwise i'll nvr finish.
i gotta finish learning the cranial nerves for anat tonite.
>.< n the CNS tonite..
tensor fasciae latae..
(sounds like a coffee doesn't it?? ~^^)
n then there's the latissimous dorsi~^^
n cranial nerve abducens.
=)
rectus femoris.
n biceps fermoris longus n brevis...
wahh.. mass memorizing...
gotta get back to work! =)

11.29.2003

novembertwenty-9th
12.23pm
omg! >.<
sth totally odd just happened!
is kinda freaky actually! >.<
is rather disturbing! >.<
... 0-0

i dunno what to say...
it's rather wierd cuz.

was taking a study break,
(stupid damn exams so soon.. >.<)
n went to my cousin's xanga b.c she always has such happy blogs!
neways.. i was bored..
so i went n decided that maybe i want a chatterbox here too.
tho i still haven't got one..
cuz some stupid ad's came on n froze my explorer..
but neways. i had just wrote her a msg in the lil box thingy..
n was scrolling, i noticed that the only other person leaving her msgs was her friend jon.. besides the usual allister..
so i clicked on the link..
neways.. not wanting to read. esp the xanga of someone i don't kno, i just scrolled around
n i'm laughing @ the mushroom on a tree pix that he seemed to have been fascinated with..
n then i reach the ppl fotos..
n it's so odd.. but then i see hon's picture!
it's super random!
n i'm like 0-0?!?
cuz was just surprized that there was that whole 6 degrees thing..
cuz i'd have nvr thought he'd know my cousins' friend..
n it was just wierd..
very..
but yeah.. it's a small world.. isn't it..
tho nvr thought was this small. >.<
hmm. want to leave a msg in the guy's chatterbox..
but it's not working!! >.<
it's not loading..
~^^ i'll post on my cousin's instead!!
wah.. so wierd..

11.26.2003

novembertwenty-6th
9.45am
in library again..
notice that i'm back in the library in less than 12 hrs after leaving it..
specifically douglas..
i left here @ midnite yesterday..
then went with nemmini n mike to walterlight.
n then stayed there until 3am.
now i am dead tired.
cuz i went to phgy just now..
8.30am class..

well. i got an hr break.
then i'm going to stats n then engl..
n then i'm going back up to princess..
sleeping until 2pm.. so that's abt an hr??
cuz engl ends @ 12.30pm..
n so by time up to princess will be 12.45pm
n then jump into bed by 1pm..
n the got orgo review session @ 3pm..
n then botterell from 6.30-9.30pm
inb.w which i have 1.5 hr..
however, to get into the museum @ botterell i gotta be sufficiently early.
that would mean that i gotta leave from douglas (for example) a gd .5 hr early..
so maybe i will just bring dinner..
or buy dinner..
or not eat @ all.
does neone kno when the biosci food place is open till?
isn't there one in botterell basement too?
i think someone mentioned that b4... >.<

neways. so after anat museum..
going to douglas for 9.30pm ~^^
n studying my ass off until either midnite.
or stauffer until 2am..
or walterlight..
or until i pass out..
wherein which i'd hafta go home n sleep..
hmm. sounds like a plan!!
had i not said b4 that this'd be my killer week of studying for anat?!?!
dun forget i've got a great many other courses...
>.<

well, back to anat..
class in abt .5 hr..

11.25.2003

novembertwenty-5th
9.19pm
wah..
still in library..
tho in reality not been here v long..
i am just v. tired.
hmm..
wonder who won the VP elections for AIESEC?!
sry guys for not showing up.. >.< gomen ne..
ほんとにごめんなさいみな.. (hontoni gomen nasai mina..)
i just have so much work..
n anatomy is really tedious..
n i had been studying n on campus all day.
>.<
anyway.. i hope that the best person won. =)
tho gl to all that tried.
tho i've no clue who was trying out for which position..
but it's all gd. ~^^

wah.. anatomy..
so much to memorize..
guess what?
i mite've found a v gd study partner!!~^^
yay!! do not hafta study alone! plus he really helps me..
just cuz he really knows his stuff.
n the stuff he doesn't i kno..
so it's all gd.
ahh.. it's late..
wasted a gd 7 minutes now.
gotta get back to work..
black coffee??

11.25.03
9.27am
ahh! >.< managed to miss stats again!
i really have got to stop this. i'll nvr get anywhere @ this rate!!
.< i've gotta make a daily schedule of what i hafta do and what i hafta do in b.w..
this is utterly retarded..
i'm going to stay on campus i dun care if it's the last thing i do.
*hmph
i gotta study n work.
n guess what?!?
the library is now open until 2am~!!
it's great news!
now i can stay on campus for the longest time!
and STUDY!~^^
not that i like studying.
but i hafta do well.
n @ any cost.
except for cheating of course.
but i think that's evident enuf.

hmm.. shower b4 class?
shower??
eh? hehehe
okies.. off i go.

n i made tons of fried rice yesterday!~^^
hmm.. will carry some to campus. =)
that way dun hafta come back up for lunch!!
dinner on the other hand..
what should i do abt dinner?
come back up or no?
hmm.. hard choice.
n i gotta be at botterel by 6pm..
gotta miss AIESEC again.. >.<
dun yell @ me!! i failed both anat midterms!
i gotta do well on final.
even if i hafta coop myself up with the specimens in the museum.
neways. i'm out..

11.21.2003

11.21.03
5.08pm
omg... damn idiot @ my lab bench..
i just got out of my orgo lab..
n seriously, those two other guys at the same bench..
how dumb can u be?
one of them is ok
he doesn't really do much.
but the other guy..
seriously..
we NEVER just pour things down the drain..
wtf?!?!?
he just poured concentrated phosphoric acid down the fucking drain..
keep in mind that it was supposed to stay in the fume hood and poured into the liquid organic waste container in there.

i was standing right next to him when he poured it n seriously.
i had STRONG fumes!!
well DUh.. it's supposed to STAY in the fume hood.
y else would we do the experiment in the fume hood the whole time?!?
>.<
so fucking pissed.
plus he nvr actually preforms any of the actual labs.
he just gets the results from someone else..
and he tells everyone that he has old labs so he just basically gets it off there..
honestly..
well. he's smart enuf not to say nething in front of our TA..
but seriously.. beyond dense.
argh..
the stupid fumes..
was mad coughing @ that pt..
stupid idiot.
>.< have a headache now..

just watch..
i prolly lost some brain cells..
so mad..

neways. i think the effect has just abt dissipated.
cuz am in chernoff cpu lab..
>.<

plus am supposed to meet up with jolie now..
since we have a room in the library that we booked.
so that's gd.

wahh!!
guess what i just found out?
my chem ta for 281 (rite now) is being switched.
so he'll no longer be my ta for 282!!
argh..
cuz i went to check who'd be my ta..
but damn..
no longer.
that sux.
apparently cuz he's a gd ta so they want him for 223.
*sniff.
argh..
he's the best lab ta!!
>.< so disappointed..
just told me today. >.<
well. @ least my tutorial ta will still be josephine tsang.
she's super gd too ~^^
but she's not a lab ta..
*sigh..
anyways, i oughtta jet to the library now..
b4 jolie has my head.
jia-ne~!!

11.14.2003

11.14.03
9.34pm
wahh! >.<
still got my cold!!
n i wanted to goto the asian semi tonite!!
so fuking sick.
damnness..
argh..
well. i'm not letting myself go out tonite.
n perhaps i'll be all better tmr.
i'm gonna pull a study session...
full day. ~^^
gonna be so proud of myself when i get everything done.
=)
plus i got an english essay due on wed. >.<
neways. i think i'm gonna go shower n get ready for bed.
been so busy talking on msn is almost 11pm already! >.<

11.13.2003

11.13.03
2.52pm
wahh!! it's so cold o.s!
>.< when left for my 9.30 class this morning there was rain, wind n gusts! >.<
it was horrible!
not to mention that i woke of my own accord this morning @ 4.30am. >.<
n well. cuz i slept so early last nite so decided not to go back to sleep n to try n do sth for my engl essay..
or do my orgo lab..
neither of which occurred mind u..
but yes.. that..
plus.. i have a super bad cold rite now!
>.< it's horrible.!!
n i had intended to go buy tickets for each of my housemates for tmr.
>.< ahh..
n there are several who won't go if i dun go..
n i feel sick.
>.< when they finally convinced me to go.. =|
actually. it was aud who used food to bribe me.. >.<
well. that n an inargueable pt that she had. >.<
*ai.. but i feel so bad as if i am causing a bunch of ppl to not go just b.c i feel like being disagreeable.
ok. maybe that is entirely not true..
i have a v. legit reason not to go.
but yeah..
well.. i wanna go too.
but.. >.<.. i hafta study!!
well.. will decide tmr.
tho depends if i feel better in the afternoon..

11.12.2003

11.12.03
1.14pm
wahh!! ~^^
today is such a nice day! hehe.
it's super nice o.s!
not like the past week..
where it's been cold n dreary n yucky. >.<
wow!! hehe.
mmm..
today i have my final generasians meeting..
final in that i'm going to tell them i've got to quit. if i wanna survive n not fail..
so yeah. that's that..
n there's the japanese conversational class today too!!
gotta check time n where it is..
hehe. i think it'd be super cool if i go..
hmm... dig up email i presume?

also.. thinking about getting a holiday job @ the GAP ~^^
but only problem is they'd prolly want me to be there for boxing day..
n how in the world would that work??
cuz i won't be in kingston!??
hmm. i think i gotta tell them that n see if they still wanna hire me.
n if not then that's just too bad.
eh.. doesn't matter too much to me i suppose.
i only want the experience working in retail.
n that way i can get a job in the summer a lil easier.
but evidently today's the last day to hand in resume.
or so my friend danielle tells me.
hmm... i wonder..
>.<
well, asking won't hurt i suppose.
=P plus i luv the GAP..
plus that'd mean i'd get a discount!!! rite??
hehe.. =P >.<

what else??
i'm gonna start my engl essay today!
or i hope so @ least.. plus i need to do my lab soon now..
i gotta retrieve emails that means.
cuz my lab partner has to send me the observations..
hehe. she summarized it all. >.<

hmm.. u kno what tastes super gd??
frying some sliced mushrooms in olive oil with some paprika..
mm.. it's super gd!
i think i've grown super fond of paprika..
on baked potatoes too!! ~^^
hehe..
i think i've a gd idea..
since in middle of lunch..
go fry some engl cucumber in olive oil n paprika..
or maybe sth else..
hmm... hehe. ~^^
food!! hehe. >.<

11.11.2003

11.11.03
2.19am
mmm.. chocolate cheesecake..
mmm.. ~^^ super gd!
not super chocolate fan.. but cheesecake..
mm.. tho i think still prefer classic..
cheesecake is cheesecake. esp since homemade!!~^^
go nem! hehe
i made a classic one last week. n w.i 12 hrs all gone!
now we got a new one!! hehe
mm. super gd! wahh!! hehe

went to sci formal this past w.e!!
on 11.08.03
n i had a lot of fun! ~^^
ed n i took super many amts of pix!! haha.
he was such a sweetie to ask me to go! =)
cuz only graduating engeering sci ppl can go.. cuz their event.. =|
but yeah! ~^^ it was super cool.
i thought the place was super nice!!
grant hall seriously was transformed..
i didn't think it'd turn out like that but yeah.
(tho i nearly froze to death o.s >.<)
n housemates nem n aud went too!
n nem did my hair!!
she did a super great job!!
i definately owe her. =)
such a sweetie!!
n it was done so nicely!! looked like had done @ salon!
i got pix to prove it! hehe.

i'm getting pix tmr!!..
i hope neway... =|
together we took 160 pix!! >.<
=P
hehe n ed was such a sweetie n took pix of moon for me!!
the lunar eclipse!!
did neone else catch it?
=P
was super cool. =P

asian semi is coming!
this friday actually.. the 14th.
dunno if will go..
tho whole house is going!
(i got 5 other housemates cuz)
n it'd be fun...
just scared will not finish work! >.<
i'm still thinking abt it neways..
i'll figure it out i guess..

wahh. it's almost 3am.
i got class @ 8.30am
plus i wanna shower..
n study some orgo..
ok. i think i oughtta start now then. =)

11.07.2003

11.07.03
11.53am
fuck.. another exam down the drain! >.<
stupidness.
argh... that exam totally creamed me cuz i didn't manage to cover the last part of assignment 6..
n there were so many questions abt that!!
so fucking mad..

well.. i got a lab to go n then i'm off for this week..
i really gotta fix up my act.
>.< i let it slip so much i'm so screwed now.
n the longer i wait/take to fix it.
the worse it'll be.

11.04.2003

11.04.03
9.50am
*yawn!!!
i was late for stats again! >.<
y am i always so late!?!??! >.<
i woke up on time..
woke @ 7.09am
but STILL managed to be late by ~20 min!
>.< like my dad would say.. "how possible?!?!??!?!"
>.< *ai.. well.. @ least i went.
that's pretty gd within itself.

damnness...
well.. fuk. i just remembered that the club photo for aiesec is today. >.<
wah!! not enuf sleep so bags under eyes. >.<
i must look like a panda or sth. >.<

*yawn.. damnness. my head is still reeling..
not enuf sleep..
argh..
i promised myself i'd start working n studying today.
=) i'm gonna be such a gd girl! ~^^
nanana..
well.. that is provided that i won't fall asleep in the library when i go this afternoon. >.<
well is ok. friend is gonna go with me this time.
hopefully he'll keep me awake. >.<
or i should just go n dose on coffee..
>.< that'd work too actually.
=|

sci formal is this w.e!
>.< argh. so many things i gotta go do..
is going to drive me up the wall! >.<
=|
but yeah... >.<
but nemmy's gonna do my hair for me~^^!!
she did a gd job last nite. =P
but i couldn't see it..
so yeah. >.<

argh. i got class soon..
@ 10.30.. anat..
>.< i'm failing that course too!
just saw my marks for it yesterday! >.<
oh dear.. i dunno what to do. =|
well.. i gotta study mad now.
if i wanna do well in end. >.<

argh..
i gotta go on diet for sci formal. >.<
stupidness..
no carbs??
not that'd kill me b4 it ended.
i'd rather give up protein if i had to choose one..
>.< i'll figure it out..

nem, mike n i went to cataraqui yesterday!! ~^^
n nem got new jewelry n all for ensemble sat. =)
tho i didn't really get nething.
cuz nth really caught my eye.
n wasn't in spending mood yesterday. >.<
oddly enuf.. yes i kno. >.<
but then there isn't much i'd need to get.
my prom shoes oddly enuf match perfectly with liane's prom dress!
down to the pattern on them! ~^^
n i thought i'd only wear them once. haha.
>.<
i think i'm only missing either a hair clip of some sort n a bracelet.
but i'll figure it out. there are things i could do for those. luckily. =)
they are easy to buy cuz. =P

argh!!! >.<
i'm super frustrated..
damn failingness.
>.< neways.. i ought to go n get to class. >.<
=| otherwise be late again..
>.<
lucky only three classes today. =)
so only 3 hrs of class today.
so happy.
nannaa.. okies.
off i go! ~^^

11.02.2003

11.02.03
9.06am
~^^ ohayo! ~^^ hehe
so happy.. wahh..
where do i start??

... mm.. well.. first exams went immensely horrible..
was down for so long. >.<
n failing orgo..
literally however, i'm going to fix that.
i dun care what it takes.
i will do well.
plus.. i've got such gd friends helping me out!! ~^^
luv ya jolie!!!
such a sweetie..
plus my ta is helping me..
tho he'll prolly nvr read this..
thankyou mike!! super much!
n everyone's behind me all the way.
thnx guys.. i really needed that..
prolly more than u'll ever kno. =)
*hugs!!~^^

n nem especially cuz when i went to hand in my lab n wasn't back for an hr and she came to look for me
n that was just super sweet.
i'm sry. i didn't mean to make u worry.
n mike for helping me out that day.
n for listening to me to help me ease my stress
n lydia for being such a steady person in the face of the blizzard i was caught in.. =)
hehe. i'm ranting.. >.<

um.. what else?? halloween came and went.
the aiesec housecrawl was a success.
except.. what happened to that keg of beer i thought we were getting for the last house?
tho i suppose that with tequila there, it was alrite.
but neways. yeah..
wasn't in the mood really.
though it was prolly the first gd day i've had in a while.
none-the-less..
i dressed up.
simply cuz my housemate nem was wearing a costume.
n tho i wasn't in the mood i didn't want to ruin the mood for everyone else..
so mite as well start with a costume rite?
n yes, i'm boring.
but since i didn't have nething planned.
i just barely managed..
through my extended wardrobe of going thru my housemate's closets!!~^^
(thnx liane super much!! hehe.. for help with most of costume.. hehe)
n dressed as a/an (hs) school girl.
yes.. v unoriginal..
what do u want of me?!?
i was not in mood.
plus i looked like shit.
the fact that i actually put on sth for the event plus got myself looking relatively decent was seriously an effort!

neways. yeah. ended up taking pix.
i will post them soon enuf.
but yeah.

what else happened that nite?
umm.. vincent came from aiesec york!!
wahh!! i didn't recognize him!
he was homer simpson n his gf came as marge simpson.
(@ least i thought it was his gf.. ?? neone?)
hehe.. the costumes totally worked! ~^^
neways, that was pretty cool.
mark dressed as a ghostbusters
haha. tho is funny cuz he had filled his water gun with alcohol haha. >.<
but tuck didn't go as the marshmellow man like we planned! >.<
nem was a spanish 'chick'
n michelle was a crazy doctor?
n saw two girlies as apple trees.
my friend jon went as a cross dresser/lady. haha
n jen went as a vampiress ~^^
hmm. i gotta refer to pix to remember if there are ne that i missed.
=P
but neways. yeah..
=P

n yesterday! >.<
woke up @ noon!
ahh! so horrible.
(.. was b.c stayed @ friend's house until like 5am.. >.<)
anyway.. was super happy yesterday cuz i get to have a white rose corsage for sci formal!!~^^
so happy. =P cuz ed doesn't mind. yay! ~^^

plus i got ice cream! ~^^
n it didn't melt on way back!! =P
haha. n had so much fun grocery shopping @ food basics.
even though a certain friend tried to stop me from buying all those fattening n unhealthy things..
ie. hotdogs, beef patties, an extra tub of ice cream..
n tho he kinda failed @ that,
had a great time!
n i guess indulgence sometimes is the best idea ever. =P
but thnx for trying! hehe
but next time i will have more control. haha =P
but hey! i did end up buying a huge amt of grapefruit
plus grapefruit juice! =P

n well. main reason so happy.. was mostly the walk b.w the flower shop n food basics.. =P
cuz discovered the cutest lil antique shop!!~^^
it's adorable.. it's an old shop.. n the shop owner fixes watches.. =p
n o.s there is a lil cute bench.. with a backdrop of trees.
n it's just so adorable!
it's like in the movie whisper of the heart.
my fav anime movie ever~!!
it's giving me hope n that's prolly y i like it so much..
n every time i watch it i see sth different.

i think what i'm getting to with this entry.. is that i wanna say thankyou.
to all my friends out there..
seriously, i'm super lucky.
n someone out there must be watching over me.
to let me meet such super nice ppl.
n i kno that to u guys u must think that i'm super pessimistic
n honestly, i just think i'm being v realistic.
but i should realize there are the rare exceptions in the world.
n i seem to be living in one @ the moment. =)
cuz when i need someone to run to u guys are all always there.
when i need help you guys give it w.o hesitation. (who said life sci was so competitive that we try to harm each other instead of helping?)
n no matter what is happening u guys are always looking out for me.
i'm really happy @ the present
n though the world in which i'm in is still the same as before,
u've given me hope.
so i'm v thankful.
it means a lot to me.
n i luv u guys ever so much.
*muah

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