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october20eighth
11.44am
mm... back @ library again. bright n early today cuz get a day off class!! ~^^.. -.-" got here @ 10am.. =| n planning to stay prolly till 11pm. =( *sniff.. nearly died yesterday from being here too long! >.<"

wonder how long i will last like this.. o-0" starting to get concerned for health.. cuz barely see the sunlight! LOL. by time i come out @ nite will be pitch dark! o-0* but can't help it cuz have finals next week! >.<" so must devote self to study. =|.. but i am simply so lazy ne.. =(

anyway, if i last till 11pm. it will be my new record!! it'd be 13 hrs in lib! minus running out to JDUC for CG coffee.. or whatnot. lol. ~^^ =| but i'm not sure it's nething to be proud of. i had better get lots done for today. =| otherwise will be wholly disappointed in self. =|

what else? there's nth new besides whole heartedly devoting self to library matrimony. LOL. it had better be temporary.. exam is next week on 3rd n 4th. so it should be alrite. hopefully, this pays off n i do extremely well!! ~^^ woot!! go me! hahahhaa.. or so i wish anyway. =P dreaming is gd. lol.

posted by mi @ 10:41:00 AM

october20fourth
4.30pm
homecoming weekend is here. n it's the first time i've ever been @ queens for the event! lol. every yr i have sth back in TO so i'm nvr here. so i guess there's a first time for everything? lol.

friday had my test in morning but in evening went to a party. wasn't too bad. but yuck.. tide-look-alike-drink was really gross!! >.<" n so does goldshlagger or whatever.. eww! i don't think i really like cinnamon. neways, so left that early. =| >.<"

sat last yr's graduates came to visit. some staying over hehe. pretty yeet lao. lol. ~^^ n went to kingston brewing co.. n tried their white tail.. supposed to be ontario's best light brewed beer. was pretty gd. =) still like stella but this is quite gd too. lol. but the buffalo/bison burger.. gave me rather a fright.. b.c it was pinkish inside. n if it's ground that's not a gd sign. turns out the waitress told me it's not ground.. however, if i have some abnormal verson of mad cow u'll know where i go it. lol. =|

n then dropped by aberdeen.. that thing is amazing! so many ppl! made me so happy. lol. heheh so went n took pix. lol. n dropped by JDUC for that live band thing. was pretty gd.. i dunno who they are tho. lol. but lead singer was wearing tight low rise pants.. n it was a male.. so rather.. strange looking.. >.<" didn't enjoy that too much.. =| however, went to bbl tea later n that was fun! ~^^ mm.. red bean. lol. so that was gd. =)

n met some new ppl. =) was great. *waves hi kim, justin!. lol.

n OOH!! i got pix! all excited. will upload once back in markham. lol. ~^^ cuz dun have disk here now. =( neways. end of that. =) s'all gd. *muah to u all! hehhe

ps ~ lucy, hope u feel better soon! =)

posted by mi @ 3:29:00 PM

october4teenth
8.48pm
i wish i wasn't so lazy..
here i am wasting away everyday after school..
surfing online,
watching shows/dvds,
emailing ppl,
chatting it up on msn, icq,
cooking for no reason..

i'm going to fail @ the rate i'm going.
n then i sleep the rest of the evening off!!
it's insane it really is.
lol..

but neways,
i have so much to study and have done nearly NONE of it!! >.<"
and there's so much txtbk stuff i hafta do too!!
gah.. =(
y have i no discipline?
i am so lazy..
n remain unfocused..
for once i only wish i could focus..
n i wanna goto gym..
y isn't neone available to goto gym with me?!
*sniff..
so unfit..
n i dun want to have love handles!!
help!!!
must rid self of extraneous fat that is of no gd use. lol.
mm.. scary-like "american stick insect" lol. =)
lol. i only wish. lol.
need to get fit so heart doesn't clog with all that sodium intake. lol..
mm.. salt..
luckily seems like i hide it all quite well..
n actually was complimented thanksgiving weekend abt being thinner than b4!!
♥♥ must mean must be doing some sort of gd thing..
only problem is that by that time had been eating insanely..
therefore am already ruined..
*gah..
lol..
enuf of this pondering.
going to work..
work it is..
housemate has been going without food since lunch!!
what is she doing?!
she is studying..
y am i not so hardcore?!
okie. anytime is a gd time to start so i choose now. =)

posted by mi @ 7:52:00 PM

october12th
6.38pm
lol.. i think am having more motivation to study.
rather..
maybe am just too bored to do nething else?!
but either way is a gd thing.
however, felt obligated to finally update this blog
esp since i haven't done so since summer.
lol..

but omg.. some ppl are just so smart..
makes me so sad.
b.c when i do try i don't do so well.
rather when i try less i do better.
fine example is cramming one day b4 exam..
as opposed to studying b4 that..
but i dun understand.
of course, there is always the random occasion that i study sth enuf and i totally excel..
but those require my absolute interest..
and then i just simply absorb..
n things just come and i just remember..
gah..

wondering what to do with my life..
love challenges for sure..
and i for one, am rather distraughtly looking @ what i've gotten myself into..
i'm quite positive i don't want it as a career..
there is so much more out there..
does anyone else see that?!
or am i simply a dreamer?
with my head in the clouds??
lol.. can't help but laugh b.c anyone happing to just read this will think i'm on some sort of high n being absurdly and abnormally poetic..
or rather, trying very inarticulately to sound so..

truth is i feel that i'm not being challenged..
but when things aren't challenging enough for oneself..
one ought to challenge herself on her own..
am i not correct??!

i should work hard with the future in view but i can't see it.
i can't honestly see anything..
i really should reset a goal..
lol..
it's like it disappeared behind some clouds and here i am searching for it..
but y don't i just call it back?!
lol..
i suppose..

lol..
i need food..
vball game tonite.
all excited b.c is first game this yr.
rather because i missed the first one. >.<"
i am rather hopeless.. lol..


also, must shout out..
|| c o n g r a t s ~ d i a n n a ||!!!!!!!!!!!
you are insanely smart and you definitely deserve that mcat mark ~^^
so proud of you girl!! =) keep it coming. hehehehe

posted by mi @ 5:41:00 PM