c r e a m s i c l e: 10.2003

10.27.2003

10.27.03
11.25pm
just finished orgo exam.
eh.. think failed.
i dun care..
well.. not @ moment neway..
when i actually get the mark back i'll prolly start crying.. >.<
*ai..

10.22.2003

10.22.03
9.09pm
i'm not feeling so great.. >.<
think am getting sick..
AGAIN!!! >.<
wth is going on?
exams rn't over yet.
i dun get sick b4 or during exams.
*ai..
maybe from lack of sleep?
>...< so i walked straight in cuz they all saw me thru the meeting room window.
n i was like ??

anyway. i'm so tired..
n i think i hurt my leg muscle somehow.
maybe from climbing the stairs all way to AIESEC office all the time??
dunno.. but it hurts rite now.
esp when go down stairs..
>.<

10.20.2003

10.20.03
9.45
i have exactly 12 hrs b4 i have to leave for my anat exam..
it's worth 20%
there's almost no chance i will pass.
i CANNOT afford to fail this exam.

n u kno what? all day i've been slacking.
sleeping.
i was out cold.. even my housemates..
knowing that i should be studying n trying to help me
they knocked on my door,
even called my fone.
yelled..
i didn't wake up.

is scary cuz i slept last nite.
i dunno what to do.

either way.
i'm going to cram as much as possible.
even if it kills me..
i will do it. i dun care.

ha. what is even funnier is that my housemates n i..
after i woke up after passing out..
were trying on each other's prom dresses n my newest dress..
n taking pictures.
well. of them but not me. obviously.
>.< cuz i dun want to be in pix.
but yeah...

neways. i got less than 12 hrs b4 exam..
time to cram..

10.19.2003

10.19.03
9.40am
wahh!! i am being swamped.
am going to die for all my exams! >.<
dunno what to do..
shitness.

ahh!! HELP!!
y does anat have so much to study!?!?!

actually..
i can't really have that much.
cuz the 2nd midterm is next week.
for labelling...
so yeah. i suppose i have to study exactly half of the stuff.
>.<

n i went to orgo class yesterday!
~^^ i didn't defeat the purpose of staying here! ~^^
so proud of myself.
but damn.
found out just how much i really didn't kno of what was going on..
*ai. i gotta mad study for orgo rite after anat.
okies..
well, it's still 'early' in the morning.
mite as well go shower n study some.
b4 i waste the morning away.. *ai..
the library opens in 16 minutes~^^
>..<
well, *jia ne!

10.18.2003

10.18.03
2.34pm
AIESEC ppl are all off on the retreat today.
am not going..
kinda of relief.. cuz i really gotta study..
tho am taking a break rite now..
mostly cuz i ate too much so yeah..
>.< it hurts..
i always over eat..
=|

neways, got 5 hrs last nite.
woke in time to goto orgo class this morning.
n i learned just how much i was screwed for the exam next sat.
>.< it's going to be killer!!
someone help me please!!! =|
i'm so scared for the exam!! is going to be so hard! >.<

anyway, yesterday's party got better as it progressed so i did end up enjoying myself.
>.< n damn it. that was a bad dare alex..
cuz yea. i really am v. v. heavy.
>.<

n i feel so guilty getting lydia to drink a whole glass of rum n coke! >..<
eeee... feel so guilty.
tho she wasn't drunk or nething.
>.< feel so bad to put pressure..
tho i said she didn't have to do it..
*ai..

neways.. i gotta get back to studying.
damn a lot of anat to memorize.
esp if i only bought the txtbk yesterday.. >.<

10.17.03
12.02am
over @ mike, alex, hart n aaron's house rite now.
it's mike's 20th birthday! ~^^
so we are celebrating @ his house.
actually, it was his birthday yesterday..
but thursday is not a gd day to throw a party considering it's now in middle of midterms.
>.<

didn't get enuf sleep last nite.
i dunno.
dun feel up for the party tonite.
not really hyper either. but yeah
i dunno y ne..
prolly highly due to lack of sleep..

that damn fucking lab took me from 5-6-ish at nite until 2.10pm the next day!
wtf!! >.<
i thought if i started earlier that i'd finish earlier..
was a killer lab..
i only got like 3 hrs last nite.
one hr power nap at nite
n the other 2 hr power nap in the morning..

neways, back to other room. is getting crowded near the cpu.
>.<

10.16.2003

10.16.03
2.10am
wahH!! phgy exam was super hard!!
>.< damnness failed..
wasn't like questions super hard.
just could not get right answer..
must be super dumb.

or just that i party n socialize too much.
OR that i procrastinate too often.
i think mixture of both.
damnness.

>..< i spent so long!!
found these super cool ones tho! keke
check out www.mess.be

damnness..

argh.. am so frustrated..
what happened to part (b) of the fundamental freedoms from the charter of rights and freedoms?
wtf??
so damn mad.
n i quote "b) freedom of thought, belief, opinion and expression, including freedom of the press and other media of communication;"*
notice the freedom of thought, belief, opinion and expression, including freedom of the press and other media of communication; part!
wth is wrong?!!?
do i not have this fuking freedom!
so damn fuking mad.

=|... i'm stressing out.
*ai..
need a break. so damn many things i gotta do.
>.< eee! i'm not done my orgo lab writeup due friday!
>.< i gotta fix my lab prep.. cuz he said i did too much for it.
argh.
i gotta go home to pick up stuff tho!
*ai..
dunno how will work out. sth has to be fixed.
=|
the hell with this..
each w.e packed.
is so stupid!
*mad..

guess what?? pix from this past thanksgiving weekend are up! ~^^
so happy.
finally uploaded them!
so can go take a look. =)
caught this really funny one of will taking potatoes out of oven. ~^^
haha. damn funny
nana..
had so many ppl over tim.
n yay!! can cook turkey like emmy now! ~^^
hehe. neways... gonna sleep now. ~^^
zzz

*fundamental freedoms

10.14.2003

10.14.03
4.55am
*yawn yawn..
>.< am tired.
have phgy exam tonite @ 7pm.
dunno how will pass @ this rate.
okies. i really should go offline. sleep.
even if skip stats.
n study tmr.
i got an anat n chem class also.
but yeah. must study.
must sleep
wnd n liane were in here earlier trying on my prom dress.
i caught pix!!

guess what? i've finally uploaded my pix from my camera onto the cpu!
>.< stupid thing wouldn't work ~~yesterday~~ sunday nite.
>.< stupidness.
well, i caught a pic of the turkey neway.
>.<
there's one with my hand n it too! =|
>.<
*yawn.
pls!!! dun let me fail phgy!
i think i ought to sleep on it.
okies. gd idea.

will write after my exam.

10.11.2003

10.11.03
7.36pm
wah!! intolerable cruelty is such a gd movie! ~^^
watched it last nite with some friends.
catherine zeta-jones is super pretty!!
>.< but seriously.. how does she move her hip that much?
i think it's a result of those super high heels.. cuz if dun move hip cannot walk in them.
=|

anyways, is super gd movie.
v unpredictable.
~^^ tho those silly cupid-angel things r kinda scary..
they were v. disturbing during the intro/title-credit thing..
>.< so disturbing.
i think they r scary..
but wah.. movie was great. =)
luv it.
gonna look out for those producers.
new to hollywood.. n somewhat artsy.
v. cool. ~^^

*yawn. so tired.
bought a 16 lb turkey today! >.<
so scary..
it's the size of a big watermelon..
>.< we were v. lucky tho.
cuz it was the last one the butcher had.
but i dunno how to make turkey..
luckily em does..
>.< i only kno how to make a chicken.
n i think is easier b.c won't dry out as easily. =|

anyway, think gonna sing some k..
just cuz bored..
but dun wanna go out.
just gonna loiter.
make some cupcakes for tmr..
study some phgy.
do some of my chem lab write up..
n eh.. i'll figure it out

10.10.2003

10.10.03
10.52am
fuck!!
failed my stats exam..
>.< argh. what is with that??
i'm so bad @ probability..
i knew that already.
so damn hard.
stupidness.
i'd rather have algeo or cal or sth.
stupid requirement that i have to take it b4 i can grad out of my program
>.< ahh.. so mad.
plus i was late.
>.< own doing. cuz was loitering trying to figure out a formula.
*ai..
whatever.
is my own fault for not studying enuf.
but seriously..
i've NVR been gd @ probability..
tho that doesn't mean that i can't start now mind u.
but still.
argh.. so pissed off.
damnness worth 20% of final mark.
*argh.
stupid last question totally got me confused..
stupid R n S n waking up on time dependent on remembering to use alarm clock.
stupid alarm clocks.

oh well, is over now. i just hope i get tons of part marks.
honestly.. the marking scheme was kinda weird.
the hard question was worth 10 marks.
but was the same as some easy question.
so i'm like.. ??
whatever. just hope my scribbles made some sense.
i understand the concept but not the methods used i suppose.
damn mr. blando.
stupid oac finite teacher.
couldn't explain me a thing.
he just kept reading n rereading his notes to me.
i was like wtf? i dun get ur notes that's y i'm asking!
dear goddess.

are there even tutorials for stat 263?
cuz i dun kno abt them if that's the case.
damn piss me off.
argh..
stupid probabilities.
hate them.
*hmph

well, i've vented all i can. cuz i can't do nething abt it neways.
i still got more exams..
so i cannot wry abt too much.
i still gotta study for phgy n anat this coming week.
damn huge amts of memorizing for anat.
there's gotta be another way..
eh.. cannot brainstorm ideas at this pt.

i wanna go see intolerable cruelty..
n honey as well.
both sound so cool! ~^^
i actually saw the rundown the other day.
actually thought was v gd! haha
i remember i was like.. is it gd??
r u sure?
i dun think i wanna see it
basically me whinning abt it.
but then i came out n was like keke.
haha. like other time when was going in to see fast n furious..
i was complaining to vic abt it..
>.< i should have more faith

neways, intolerable cruelty is now out rite??
damn i wanna see it.
but i can't!
cuz gotta study.
plus i got way more than i can handle on my plate rite now..
so seriously..
i can't do v much nemore.

>.< super scared of burning out too..
damnness..
feel like bogged down with too many things.
argh..
is own fault..
argh.

fuk. almost forgot!!
is my grandmother's birthday today!
i have to go buy a fone card n call her.. =)
~^^ mmm..

argh. i got a headache..
fuk it.. argh.
tylenol! ~^^
hehe all better now.

*ai. i gotta go back up to my place to get my chem lab stuff.. i haven't done the prep yet..
>.< neways, i ought to start heading up.
i think aud already left for TO.
=( missed saying bai to her.
but is ok. not like going for a long time.
=P

wahh!!! alex's anime hair is super cool!! ~^^ keke..
super like! ~^^ <3!!
tho apparently am only one who likes it..
>.< or maybe i am the only one who pts it out everytime. >.<
but it's so cool!!
looks like straight out of anime!
so similar to zel's hair!!
=) nana.

neways, i finally go my hands on eva a couple weeks ago.
damn it! it was the happy ending.
the short happy ending version.
so damn upset abt that.
i wanted to see the long depressing ending one.
stupid happy ending makes no sense @ all to me!
damn ppl who made creator change it.
*hmph.
now i gotta go find it somewhere.
>.< who has it?? neone??
stupidness.. hmmm...
i think tim was going to lend me.
only problem is that he's in markham..
=|
he's got the biggest collection that i kno of!!

neways. wtf is wrong with these past couple days?
so irratic..
n so many 'random bad things' happening..
but whatever.
neways. i think i ought to stop typing.
>.< tying up my friend's cpu. =|

10.06.03
1.45am
wow.. i haven't written in here in ages. >.<
i am so damn lazy..
neways. yeah.. back in queens. is not too bad.
cuz my friend leo is such a nice guy..
cuz i told him how dun like queens that much..
n that i think is boring n is depressing atmosphere.
n now he looks out for me n makes sure i'm ok.
n that i'm nvr bored.
n gets me out
so this year is turning out a lot better than last year. =)
plus now that in house i like much better.

neways, wahh.. nvr do ne work!
>.< only biggest problem..
=|

neways guess what!?!?!
so excited! i got asked to goto sci formal!! hehe
=) so happy. i really wanted to go cuz.
~^^ so excited..

went with leo, will n alex to go look @ tux's n get measurements n all the other day.
wahh!! shit..
they gonna look super gd!
haha not that they dun usually look gd. hehe. *smiles =P
but yea..
haha n my obession with red.
wahh.. will is gonna look so gd in that set! yesh.
n silver on alex is definately really gd.
n what have i to say?
leo's always got gd taste haha
=)
so excited. hmm. had better catch pix b4 they get all hyper or drunk.
haha. >.<

now i got a fixed goal..
lose weight b4 nov 8th.
haha.
nana. so excited.

i got my hair relayered today.
so happy.
was bothering me for the longest time.
stupid like dry grass..
>.< but all better now.
not all over place. ~^^

neways, so returned to k-town from TO today..
n i came back n was like 'bored'..
n well, started to unpack n housemates wanted to see me try on the dresses i brought back.
yes.. i am super excited abt sci formal. i think i'm overreacting but whatever.
it's fun this way. hehe
n no, dun burst my happy bubble, k?
=P neways. so yeah. brought some dressed n skirts back.
n was like having a fashion show.

guess what?? i was so happy yesterday nite.
cuz my dad was like u got thinner from going back to queens! ~^^ so happy
n my mom was like. 'see, i thought so' haha.
~^^ yay!! hehe.
tho i ate so much that nite..
i ate so much sashimi that my stomache started hurting!
>.< i can't eat that much.. i kno.
but damn is so gd..
mmm.. i luv japanese food. keke. ~^^
i really should stop overeating tho..
is result of bad judgement.
always too much food.
seriously tho.. now that think abt it.
how possible i lost weight @ queens??
i eat so much!
must be excessive amts of walking maybe??
but that didn't happen last year..
must've been caf food result..
neways whatever.

wonder how ORC was..
i went home so as a result, i missed homecoming weekend AGAIN!!
n also missed the ontario regional conference for AIESEC.
damness.
so disappointed..
oh well, so long dun miss OQ or national conference is all gd.

halloween is coming! ~^^
going to have part of house crawl @ my place.
so excited!
was a wonder that my housemates dun mind =|
so cool! hehe.
cuz thought they'd be totally against actually.
surprizingly i'm gonna get to go along with it! ~^^
hehe. so is not too bad.
n gd thing ppl have locks to their own rooms.
i suppose this way won't have nething important stolen.
not that i dun trust ppl i'm inviting.
but my housemates dunno them

u kno what is odd??
it's really bugging my how of all the keys on my laptop keyboard,
the "N" is fading!!
must be how i poke @ it.
>.< tho it's not like i dun use the other letters just as much
must be the angle @ which i press the key itself.
>.< anyway.. yeah.. i guess i do scrape @ it more..
nails.. haha.
actually, i sometimes get my nails caught too.
i think i gotta cut them
plus i wanna learn how to play the guitar..
=P neways. it's kinda late..
i'm not tired..
only cuz i fell asleep in my housemate's room again!!
it's twice in a row now!
i should just avoid visiting her room.
cuz i just fall asleep on her bed! >.<

shit.. started chatting n is now 3.30am! >.<
sleep sleep. nite

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